You are not who you think you are although this is exactly who you think you are. Your primary identity is with the overthinking voice in your head. This is a key aspect of the false self. It tells you who you think you are and who you should be
It is never really happy. It doesn’t know contentment. It doesn’t know peace of mind. It is an unending dialogue that sucks the life out of you and the primary cause of both personal and collective human suffering.
So who are you in truth if you are not this incessant desire creating thinking machine that you can’t switch off and rarely recognize as the source of most of your discontent? The answer is that you are the awareness that is beyond this thinking, feeling and sensing. You are not the contents of the mind/body but the space within which the contents are able to manifest.
Let me try and illustrate this with an example.
These are the Clouds about the fallen Sun the majesty that shuts his burning Eye – W. B. Yeats
Imagine that you are living under a cloud. You have forgotten what it is like to know the feel of the Sun warm upon your face. The clouds one day lift and you become aware of something beyond clouds. The clouds represent the cover of your overthinking personal mind. The truth of who you are is the Sky.
Do not take this literally. You are the choiceless awareness in which thought, feeling and sensation move.
When you were seven years old you had a body, you had feelings and sensations. You grow up to be 21 years old. You have a different body, different thoughts and different sensations. Now you are thirty-five years old. You see yourself different from the seven-year-old and the twenty-one-year-old.
Yet throughout all these changes down the years something never changes. This is the fact that you are aware. Notice that at whatever age you are your awareness still is the same. This is, metaphorically the infinite sky that you are and always are. You are the container and not the contents.
Without awareness (the sky) you are always living under a cloud – the over identification with the thoughts, feelings and sensations of the body that are the sum of your personal identity. You remain unaware of the glory of the Sun that is your True Self. To become directly aware of this Sun experience is what is referred to as Spiritual Awakening.